Life teaches us many Lessons and many times we trip over the same rock and despite getting our share of lessons, we still end up making the same mistakes. Like I mentioned in my previous post, it is the time for New Beginnings.
Today, I recieved my books for the Chartered Accountancy exam that I'm planning to give. And, MAN! Did they scare me?! They are 5 FAT books comprising of Fundamentals of Accounting, Merchantile Law, Quantitative Aptitude, General Economics and Model Papers. If i was actively studying for the past 2 years then these books may have seemed pretty normal to me. Unfortunately, I have not, so the very first sight of these books gave me jitters making me question my choice of resuming my studies after this long 2-year break. Perhaps, i should have just been the way i was.
Then, one deep breath. It is scary, I may even fail, But i am going to give my best shot. I promised myself to treat myself with love, commitment and doing things which are good for me. You know sometimes you eat a medicine even though you don't really like the taste of it? Yeah, well for me these New Beginnings are just like that. They scare me, make me feel that i am pretty incapable but I need to take these risks to bring the much needed change in my life so that 5 years later i don't look at my life and wonder ''Maybe i should have tried it''.
So, I have started taking my Baby Steps towards improving my life. And I know I am not really capable of doing all of it on my own. I am pretty sure I cannot do anything until I get some help from My Lord (swt)... and Inshaallah I hope I get it.